Monday, December 26, 2005
*rolls eyes..
please..
so harsh on a 17 yr old..
lol..
I need inspiration.Not just another negotiation
[3:28 am]
Dear blog,
why do i felt so depressed at wrk today?..
i could felt my heart sank and i felt like crying of all sudden..
is it that i missed the 7 days we had in taiwan?
or some reasons frm wrk..
maybe its the post-holiday blues..
i think i miss taiwan and the friends there..
or maybe its the melancholy chirstmas im having today..
or maybe its that S.H.E. tian hui song..
i felt like quiting that job..
for many reasons i felt like leaving..
for many reasons i felt like staying..
why is life so fucked up for me now?
anyway my new bed will come tml..
new queen sized bed!..
i intend to give away my outgrown bed to my cuz..
cause..they're having problems now..
all thanks to lousy stock playing skills..
and her greediness..
and i talked alot with francine today..
talk abt how life is to me and to her..
her family..
and i came up with this 2 philosophy..
its not very intellectual to such high degree
but..i believe in it..
and thats is..
'nth is forever'..
'humans are ugly spoilt brats[beast]'
i strongly believe that all humans are selfish..
every single humans..
but why i trust humans so easily?
i gave her my trust and what i get?
that distrust attitude..
that i've-seen-the-whole-world behaviour..
that hypocrisy speech..
that feign appearance..
i cant believe i actually called her my twin back then..
im not sure why i loathe her so much back then..
maybe im not in the right mentality to judge her at that time..
am i sorry for my actions now?
partly yes and partly no..
yes for not giving her time to explain herself..
no for all the distrust events,all the shity things..
and..
i think im not the one who can be friends with ex-girlfriends..
cause breakup usually would have one strained party..
the victim would loathe the culprit..
the culprit would be too ashamed to face the victim..
ps:i didnt weight my weight yesterday..lol..
pps:i vowed not be alone or working at christmas nxt yr..
ppps:i still havent gotten my skates..dammit!
pppps:this my first chirstmas alone and wrking..i hate today..
quote of the day..frm S.H.E.天灰
"我的天空今天有点灰,我的心是个落叶的季节"
5 more days to o6!
I need inspiration.Not just another negotiation
[2:24 am]
