Saturday, August 12, 2006
i was wrong.
now then i realise it.
its was all my fault.
le sigh
i still wanna hangout i guess.
but some people...
i dont know.
they turns me off?
..
anyway.
saw them.
nv got the chance.or didnt bother at all.oh well.
memories just flash through when topics are discussed.
how we travel to school in cab together.
how we used to hangout.
how we used to call names.
how we used to play around
how i used to slack at people's house
how we used to quarrel
how i hate everything
how everything.
but i know.we cant go back to we once were.
at least i know i can't pass the trials from my heart
perhpas its guilt?anyway...
le sigh i dunno what to do.
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i didnt go for the fireworks cause..
yah,i went gathering,
and another reason is that i expected some dramas there.
and so..i rather save some brain cells and slp at home.
neither banana nor fish went too.
i guess the bystanders like us are like giving up already.
correct me if im worng.cause i feel it this way.
and all i wanna say is..
u
4 are the main cause of this splitage thingy
so none of u can say or blame
ppl that the group have changed.
or smth like why i nv go,then u got no one to talk to.
cause ur all the main cause i dont wanna go.
so what if the FWork are darn pretty?
i love myself more than FWork ok.
i rather slp than killing my brain cells.
and i felt that im correct to keep a distance cause.
since i cant do anything to help.
might as well sit back and dont stir up trouble.
based on that 'i guess so' case..
rlly u know a fucker is forever a fuckering idiot.
'idiot'..im
sarcastic too huh.how humorous.
ha hur hah.
i dont mind losing that friendship.
since its like a missing link already
and im sry to tell someone that i cant
play with u as long theres
someone beside me.
maybe we shldnt have
talk to each other during school?
or even
texting.
even
msningsince every u do is mostly based on one's feeling than the general benefits.
oh well its ur decision anyway.
it seems that u rather keep a guy and losing people,its all up to you.
since i have like, no say,
but just to let you know i have and can make
my own decisions too.
just dont get too shocked.
if it really happened.moral of the post:
i love myself more than fireworksand i dreamt of smth funny today.i dreamt of going to a gang fight at my ah mah house's void deck.haha.i must have wanting to beat up someone real bad huh.
I need inspiration.Not just another negotiation
[1:42 am]