Monday, July 03, 2006
will you concern when leaning tower has collapsed
will you cry when your dearest has passed away
will you care when you saw a helpless old lady on the street
will you care if i dont care about you anymore?
if u do,im sorry then.
if ur not,im sorry that your such hypocrite.
sometimes i wonder.
what makes a human ugly.
the upbringing?
the peers?
the innerself?
i dont wanna do this anymore.
its like taking chunks of that person's life bit by bit
i dont wanna be a murderer again.
a part of me keeps holding to on the thinking.
the thinking of chains that broke would never be repaired
while over looked at the intense flame of passion that bonds the chains.
broken chains,melted chains,brand new chains.
its a cycle over and over again.
tho the new chains might not be as good as the orginal ones.
at least they still anchor u in reality,keeping you away from the fury hell
while another part of me wanted freedom,
the same ol past.
the laughters.
the joy.
the sunny sky.
people.
fantasy...
but the harsh reality again.
pulled me away from my own fantasy in this cold heartless world.
im just....
someone...
who is perpetuating my own existence now...
will there come a day
when i will be
able to say
never mind the pain or the aggravation and exasperation?
*****looking back on the things i have done
i was trying to be someone...
im looking back on the things i have done
i never wanna play the same old part
i will keep it in the dark
and i still dream about that..honestly
tell me that it's over
cause if the world is spinning and im still living
it couldnt be right if that happens
so..
tell me that it's over
and let me forget and..fade away.
*****
I need inspiration.Not just another negotiation
[9:41 pm]